show biz

"I can't have it and you can't have it and we won't get it
so don't bet on it or even think about it

just get out of bed each morning, wash, shave, clothe yourself
and go out into it

because outside of that all that's left is suicide and madness

so you just can't expect too much

you can't even expect

so what you do is work from a modest minimal base.
like when you walk outside
be glad your car might possibly be there
and if it is - that the tires aren't flat.
then you get in and if it starts - you start.

and it's the damnest movie you've ever seen
because you're in it--
low budget and 4 billion critics

and the longest run you ever hope for is

one day." C.B.